Sunday, September 16, 2007
alrights. after choosing lotsa skin n editing all the shits on LJ, i've decided to move back home. to where i am more comfy with. altho i cant privatize the entries other than savin them as drafts... its ok.. coz am gonna blog evry single details of lyfe here. unless of coz there r kinky stuffs i wanna blog den er... haha! i wont even blog them down! anyways if u realized only a handful of u will hav the assess to this add. am not gonna giv out the address as yet. till evryting has settled down (u noe wad i am referring to). of coz if nobody comes here.... i wouldnt b bothered too.
ok into the main ting.
i've finally gotten back my rooooM! over the past mth my dad's new zealand colleague has been occupying it. n he has thus gone back.... i've been sharing my bro's room all along.. i dunno if i've blogged it down notz... but anyways i have it back n its all dat matters! afew pics to show u guys how simple my room is. i dun hav much decoratives.
the lappy with my books. its really messy still.
chubby behing my door. dats his fave slpin area.
small dog on my bed!
yeah so now u've seen it... its not a girlie room... coz am not into pinkie stuffs n all.. but am tryin to get some table stuffs for my desk.. n esp a super comfy chair! its a MUST! nvm... shall go psycho my dad soon haha
so today we had a sumptuous meal at unique seafood place at turf city. live seafood n all.... 6ppl costing near 700. after discount n stuffs my dad had to pay 557$. no complains coz it all tasted YUMMY! the lobster is like 1.5kg n cost 288 lar... we had half a pig... crabs.. fishie... sea mantis.. bamboo clams n a veggie dish. damn gddddd ok.... yinghao was present tooo.. basically bicker thru out the meal lar... bth! haha
after the dinner we sat ard n talked abit.. talked abt jacky n the r/s.. i had to admit i was driven crazy by him. his possessiveness n aggresiveness was too much to bear. i needed my space n somehow he got beyond the comfort zone by force n it put me off. after we broke up, tings like even msn chats were difficult. his calls n smses were so scary dat i didnt wanted to hav my fone with me wherever i went. this was how bad.. there was no trust. no wadsoeva. n to him its all my fault.. he didnt feel dat i cared for him or for the r/s.. hai... i really am confused abt how i feel towards him. i noe the feelings wasnt strong. so i guessed a minor wrong step would get me off track. n so i tink it did went wrong.... i so wanna apologize.. but its really hard esp when i noe wadeva i hav to say will hurt him n evryone else. hai.... yeah its partly me. but he made it all worst.
i dunno when would anyone else get to read this page. or him. coz these few days were hard. feelings were messed up. n i realized up till now... i still do love daniel. n i miss him badly. evry lil ting i do it makes me tink of him. but i am not the one he is tinking of. but no worries.... no tears.... i guessed they dried up.
the need to forget.
-
I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
the lappy with my books. its really messy still.
chubby behing my door. dats his fave slpin area.
small dog on my bed!