Sunday, November 11, 2007
cant slp. guessed i napped too long juz now. hafta wake up at 8am later. grrrr how........ gonna go the tea ceremony lookin like a zombie. BAH fretting over wad to wear too.. y cant we juz attend dinner n not the tea ting?
choices choices.
anyways had supper earlier on. met my parents for supper at ssp. initially planned to meet marc. but i was lazy. but hunger got the better of me so i met my parents instead. had kway chap. c... no pt doing sit ups man.. do finish liao eat! haha... wads the pt huh huh huh? lol
while walking back the usual walkway... tot of several ppl who used to walk alongside me thru the pathways. or mayb waited for me there. time really flies.. vivid images. could literally feel them. i guess things really do happen for a reason. events leading to more events. some mite say its a vicious cycle... i choose to believe its a stage in life. well... we have many many stages den.. haha
hmmm.. if not for daniel.. i wouldnt hav know mk.. wouldnt have gone on supper nites with him. still rmbr the 1st time he fetched me home. i was still with dan but i guess r/s souring huh... places he brought me to. cosybay... all over jurong... free zouk entrance.
den there was jacky. one single experience. lesson learnt. enuff said.
n of coz there wouldnt b dat DANIEL issue. tho i shd b appreciative it did happened... allowed me to finally unstd wad kinda person i love. or loved for dat matter.
sometimes i feel... time passed soo quickly.. ppl and the things happening ard us r easily forgotten. slipped thru our grasp. like how ppl come n go. either they leave prints or they dun. either we let them go. or they chose to leave. either way.. we somehow rmbr them along the way. n veri often we ask 'why' 'how' 'when' worst.... 'who'. but i do hope i can rmbr evryone.. even if i choose to forget u today becoz u hurt me. i wanna rmbr evryone who left a lil mark in my life 10 yrs down the rd. n of coz when i die lar...
coz i love evryone...... love love love... grew up too quickly. i dun hav time to appreciate the ppl ard me. time management is juz an excuse. it can nv b succeeded. haha
den there r some ppl i dun wan them to ever leave. someway or another some did. dead or alive. both. i admit i am a sucker for love. cried gallons n gallons. 1 eventful day taught me to cry necessarily. i dun cry as much as i did before when i fell out of love ever since. y shd i cry for ppl who doesnt appreciate me or wadeva i did. hell.
life is like this. filled with questions... assumptions. perceptions... irony.
hmmm... lotsa tots... they always do come to me. esp when i cant slp. but such tots always linger ard in my head nites n nites away. nites emote. they do... esp silent sleepless nites. i shd b studying instead of emoting. but.... i need to slp NOW. argh
to justin.
dun b sad for too long.. we've been thru it. n will go thru it again n again. when u feel the sky is dark on ur side. rmbr we're all under the same idiotic piece of sky lar... so its dark on my side too... damn sweet rite.... muahahahha... chorlor-ness mixed with honey! rmbr the suggestion i gave u...
things happen for a reason.
live the nites
hoping the reason is right.
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
