Friday, November 30, 2007
today's papers had the dragon boat mishap on front page. memorial held yesterday i guess. read the eulogies by their loved ones. very cruel ting to happen to parents. to siblings. to frens. i tink the saddest ting in life is not being able to say goodbye when u noe dat one goodbye is the only final thing left. reminded me of the time i cried buckets when i noe i lost 2 frens forever. frens who spent nites on fone with. frens who suan me to the max. frens i love. the tinge of sadness when i read the news... i could feel the lost. been there before i guess...
of coz i noe none of them. but i tink the better part of the death is dat they died while doing sth they spent half their time doing. dragonboat.
tsktsk..
u noe.. i dun wanna lose anyone.. be it parents or frens. i dun wanna experience the kinda feeling i felt dat time. its sth i wanna keep buried deep inside. the kinda remorse n regret knowing dat u could have treated the person much better.... telling the person despite the constant bickering... u DO CARE. n u DO LOVE him/her. but u can nv love the person a lil bit more anymore. n he/she left w/o knowing dat extra bit of love actually did exist. but the love has since to be kept inside our hearts. hidden quite deep inside coz u noe u dun wanna lose dat last bit of unsaid love n memories for the future holds no unfounded memories of those lost.
u can not blame it on time. its the effort being put in. altho everyone find time is nv enuff... but all we ever had.. is time. its the only excuse to comfort ourselves huh. esp when all is lost n life changes at dat very instant.
so..... besides saying ilu to everyone of my zhu peng gou you at there.. i shall giv each n everyone a KISS. MUACKS! lol! u guys hav to noe underneath the very often shitty comments i give.. the unimpressed facial expression i giv to u when u do sth stupid... i do love u guys... to the MAX.
i love my parents too of coz. tho i always always always talk back.. waste their efforts n time n money... i noe they still stick ard coz they love me for who i am. so i love them for who they are........ minus the bloody expensive fish n osim pillow. haha.
yeah.. dats abt it. life n its ups n downs. a rather sad day in life esp for parents out there. i feel u.
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
