Tuesday, January 20, 2009
it was supposed to be a normal day like every other day. supposed to be a normal saturday where work ends at 1pm. supposed to spend the day as per normal shoppers. cny shoppers to be exact. was supposed to have similar anticipation for the day's already planned events. supposed to end work with a smile. supposed to head to town for a last min cny shopping. supposed to meet mum. to have supposedly planned delicacies.
like how its all supposed to happen.. it didnt.
the day started like the other sats dat i've had gone thru. planned to meet mum at paragon after work which was ard 1pm. normality didnt wait till 1pm to pack up n leave. 30mins from knock-off i experienced this acute pain. i tot it would go away but it persisted.. i could hardly walk but still i made it down to the taxi stand n waited for mum to come n fetch me to wadeva miraculous place there could be.
SGH that is. since i cant really walk i was wheeled abt in a wheelchair. virgin experience with so many freaking pair of eyes staring at me. i bet they must be thinking 'poor girl.. so young cannot walk already' DAMNIT. i cant be bothered to challenge their first-impression of me cos its a 98% chance that we wouldn't meet anytime soon. so their first was also our last.
the one thing i hate abt seeing doctors at trying times like this. esp when i dont feel gd AT ALL. i only see docs when i really really have no more bit of threshold for wadeva thing dat could happen. only when i couldnt take whichever is thrown at me would u see me at the doc's. n of cos... like every other place in sg. we have to queue. n i tell u.... queuing n waiting is my nemesis. i could literally feel my pulse bursting n lungs exploding. i registered at 1.40pm only to be admitted into the hospital at 8pm.
now everyone go 'WOW'
inbtwn the agonised hrs there were consultations. they were trying to make out wad exactly happened. cos the pain was concentrated on the right.. n girls being girls. we're very complicated be it mentally or physically. we always have more wadeva than the males n its the same for anatomy LOL. so they couldnt make out if it was appendicitis or some pelvic prob. by den i already had 4 jabs. 2 of which r for blood tests. before i was even admitted into a proper ward i felt like i was spinning. real bad.
n dad being dad. being MY dad. he said : 'i pay u $100 for 4 holes on u. $25 each'
n me being me. being HIS girl. i said : 'no.. $100 each. total $400. PAIN U KNOW'
so much for being really sick. lol
it was only after i went for a ultrascan from the gynae dat i was told to have 2 blood cyst in my ovary. 5cm n 3cm on the right n left respectively. i had to undergo emergency operation. the aunty wheeled me past 'early labour ward' n i was like 'WAD' den she went 'no lar... haha' so funny. anw damn embarassing cos my gynae assistant was a GUY. he saw n touched everything! n i dun even know his name. BAHHHHH.
operation was at ard 9. before that i was in my ward n beside me was this aunty who had almost same thing as me. the only diff? she removed the entire ovary. now u know the seriousness of it. n damn... aunties being aunties they always scare me. the things they say n do. she said 'i also same. i stay here near 2 mths liao' -.- den every slight movement of hers seem to be in very much pain. damn scary can?! i so wanna escape from her.
but before long i was sent to the operating theatre to have my first n hopefully last operation of my life. the anaesthesia doc was really cute lar.
he asked me 'so u feeling ok? scared nots? ur heart is beating quite fast.'
me 'yup scared n nervous'
him 'not scared den abit weird right'
me 'a lil excited too'
him 'wah excited?!' den everyone laughed 'why excited? u weird arh'
me 'first time mah'
den when i woke up.. all i could feel is the extreme coldness in the room n the severe pain my abdomen was undergoing. i heard faint voices n some words. but i cant really open my eyes other than knowing that its all over. on the way back to the ward i saw mum dad bro n wayne. pretty gd feeling as least i noe i am being cared for. lol. silly. i gave a victory sign! haha. battle won!
well they went home knowing i am ok. but i couldnt slp well the whole night. every hr nurses would come n take body temperature and blood pressure. i felt like vomiting but nth came out till ard 5am in the morning. i flooded the entire toilet with my half digested korean food. muahaha it was fucking disgusting cos i had fish. the fishy smell was damn bad. i cont to vomit the following day n didnt hav any food at all. saw that i had a total of 8 jabs on me. now dats $800 LOL.
i couldnt wait to get home. it was BORING. no other word can describe it better than this word. trust me. no tv cos i had the class B2 ward. 5 person with air con. but no tv! dats damn sad. the nurses were really nice. even after how i messed up the toilet with my vomit n my shirt with my vomit again. they were so patient. omg. i felt so bad for being so messed up. they even had to help clean me up cos i could not really move. for once i really felt damn pai sei.
the gd thing is. i am home. n i am thankful for the well wishes n visits from the various ppl. very impt ppl ard me. family n frens. sorry i cannot entertain u like i always could. the medication makes me damn slpy. i always had like 6 pills at 1 go. machiam feeding birds. the medication makes me drowsy. after i wake up they gimme another belt to go. so i slpt most of the time.
thanks for the flowers, the chicken essence the books. the time n the effort. thanks mum for being there everyday. i noe its damn tiring cos i've been thru it before. thanks dad for taking time off work to fetch me. thanks to everyone lar... concerns in all forms.
now.. i have 23days of mc. all the way till 8th feb. kind ppl pls come n entertain me. i am feeling really bored n lifeless. i havent had cny shopping n dad forbids me. so pls... tell me some interesting things. haha
alrights.. i shd now go watch my dvd n digest my dinner. lotsa air inside me. i feel so bloated. BYE
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
