Friday, February 20, 2009
i think i am caught in a dilemma once again. dilemma of the hearts. was telling myself time n time again to not fall for someone.. well at least not for now when i am not ready to get hurt. but it seems the more u avoid, the faster it hits u. when ur hit.. u cant run too far from that. n its bad.
its not that i take it very seriously... i mean i fall in n out of love too many a times i am quite immune to the overwhelming power. but feeling hurt n breaking down is bad esp when it took me more than 1 yr to get over someone n hurting a few others along the way.. i doubt i am ready to fall back in. any deeper than it is.
i must clarify i am not in love.. but i am attracted to him. dats y i am controlling my heart to not go any deeper. altho he says the same.. but distrust is all i have for guys now. n every positive part i have for him could easily be replaced by negativity.
trying not to think too much. yawns. its true when they say ur at ur weakest when u let someone in... into ur heart.
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
